flung a dung

279th!

2010-02-22T08:48:00.000-08:00

this blog is so dead, I'm closing it......... and having another one! HA-HA-HA.

Not funny.

byebye!

Can we go back to what we use it? Or should we move on.

2010-02-02T17:12:00.000-08:00

you didnt notice, you mean everything
quickly im learning, to love again
all i know is, imma be ok

thought i couldnt live without you
its gonna hurt when it heals to
it'll all get better in time
eventhough i really love you
im gonna smile cause i deserve to
it'll all get better in time

how could i turn on the tv
without something there to remind me
was it all that easy
to just put aside your feelings

if im dreaming
dont wanna let, hurt my feelings

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2010-01-07T22:16:00.000-08:00

I'm so sick of this blog skin I swear.

Oh such a holiday.

2009-12-15T08:34:00.000-08:00

I wonder if I'm the worst.

No phone calls,

no replies.

The fan is fucking annoying noisy.

I'm so frustrated over certain issues.

Luggage not packed yet.

Wondering why "it" always happen.

Fuck I can't think of anything to write.

Can't say the truth now cause it *****.

WWWWAKKKEEE UP CAROL!

2009-11-24T19:05:00.000-08:00

AIM 1# Wake up at 7 and meet B at 715 for school!

AIM 2# Work and Save, Cut down on expenses and spending!

AIM 3# Aces my daily grades. (hate you FA and Marketing faci)

AIM 4# Spend more time with my family

AIM 5# Movies with B.

AIM 6# Quit smoking.

Ciao loves.

MOVIES AND BENTEN!

2009-11-12T08:18:00.000-08:00

I AM SO ANNOYED WITH ALL THE PROBLEMS I'M HAVING LATELY. STUFFS LIKE FAMILY, THE RELATIONSHIP AND SCHOOL, IT'S JUST SO TOUGH TRYING TO MAINTAIN EVERYTHING WELL OR HOW TO CEASE THE TROUBLES. :(

(fuck off bitch(es)/problems)

Had a few major quarrels the past weeks and I don't like it. Who does? AHYA, WHAT TO DO? I hopppppppppeeeeezzzzzzzz we can both do better for US OKAY, sweet? ily.

Caught 2012 with Ian today and it's WOOO~ awesome film!!! Not much to comment now, too tired, Ask Ian, sure she will write a post of 20,000 words on it.

I'm heading down to Thailand next month and there's so many things I wanna buy like bikinis, dresses, TEES*****(important) maybe 20 pieces(?) ........(and the list goes on). I can't wait for the trip but I have someone waiting for me back here, well so, 4days only!

I'm so tired now and am suppose to sleep if not OO THIN is going to nag at me tml till my eardrums burst.

Then next time folks,ciao !

hi 162

2009-10-25T11:58:00.000-07:00

I'll be keeping it inside.

Though it aches, I know.

Don't want to feel that pain no more.

Still trying.

Keep smiling for me will you?

hey b.

2009-10-15T20:00:00.000-07:00

People lying people changing.

Hearts are crying souls are flying.

Feelings adjusting songs keeps playing.

Baby you can be my everything yet every time you break me down.

Wonder how things may have changed through all, you know how

Words that poured out of your mouth crashed my soul like..... now.

3 more days and that marks the 5th. :)

*UPDATED*

Ps: I've never restricted you to anything. I never said you can't texted her nor call, you just make me sound so bad. There might be issues but you don't seem like you want to bother. Since when did I not care about your feelings? Since when aren't you my priorty? Didn't I always try to make you feel loved of happy? SINCE I'M JUST THAT FUCKING LOUSY AND BAD, go ahead and listen to what others have to say, most importantly follow your heart not mine.

Till then I still love you. okay?

Another adventure!

2009-09-30T12:46:00.000-07:00

BACK FROM JB, YAY!

Awesome walking down the streets in the middle of the night hand in hand with the other one. *wide grin*

Wasn't so bad though it must be awfully boring and tiresome for B while I shopped. Bought this fish eye lens, the lens is made in such a size so that you can just stick it on your mobile or a digital cam, love it. (:

Here's one:

#8 is a nice number.

More photos taken with the lens coming up soon!

The room is not bad at all.

I hate quarrells with you, we both know we can be such a bitch at times.

Sometimes I hate you till the extent that I wish.... though there are many times I love you so much like there's no tml honey. You are so confusing like (???????????) okay?

YOU SUCK BIG TIME.

Ultimately, I love you still. damn.

118th

2009-09-16T11:52:00.000-07:00

Hello fellow earth-lings!

Gonna summarize part of this recent months.

Stopped attending church since the start of this year. I've lose the purpose of what I have to do. Sorry that I've disappointed many of you especially Him. Hmm.. Maybe it's a time for change. It's just better for me to be at the world out there, I think. A break or a permernant leave? Time will tell.

Schooling in Rp was okayish yet tiring at times. Made friends like Jerome, Amanda and Nat! The first few buddies I have in Rp. What do we call ourselves again? "The losers" that's right. HAHAHA. I'm so sorry guys that I stopped going school with you all together :( Maybe we can resume it soon!

Went for two chalets this year with the bao gang, awesome-ness totally. Hanging out with the gang was absolutly crazy fun. The first one during May was for a brithday celebration for the few of us. Ian came down after sheesha with classmates. Went to the red house for the very first time, scary! Thank Godness Ian held my hand though the funny thing is, we ain't together yet. :) BTW, will not forget the part where we ran in the wind on our way back from red house.

Second time we went, red house(again), police, gambling and getting drunk. Caught our first sunrise early the next morning, actually way too early, sat there at 5plus am and sun came at only 7plus? Cause i insist that the sun rises at 5.30 or earlier. Thus the joke of "no lor, the sun comes up at 5.30am..." continues.

Got attached.

We were laughing at the strand of hair up on my head. :)

Love those times when we could laugh at almost anything especially my jokes plus doing the stop-walk-fake pissed off actions and then making fun of each other till sometimes we just don't know what to do so then we hug each other as if we'll never let go. :)

The second time was for Vincent's enlistment, after which he went to serve the nation, somehow things weren't the same as like the past, we didn't meet up as often :( Just today, met up with Gi wah at her workplace, yay! Basically not only to get free ice cream but also to... just simply meet her lah.

The conversation I had with her today leads to one of the biggest news yet again, Clarissa is pregnant and getting married! Firstly it was Coco now Clarissa. Ahyo, why so gan chong? Oh well, at least they have their bf/husband rather then those who don't take their responsibilty at all, argh.

First Camping trip with Ian at West Coast, oh how I wish the night never ends!

My sweet with tsk tsk her best friend that night.

Finally caught up with Julien after awhile at a sheesha place. Talked about our bfs and yada yada. Had a relaxing time there with a few others as well. Ian and Vincent got really drunk the night and Ian said things that is kinda upsetting but NEVERMIND it was that night and she's drunk. *sigh and chants "forgive and forget, get over it......."* :/

Ps: Realised that I've only missed 5 days of not seeing Ian out of the past 4 months having the fact that we only stay 7min apart. heh.

Emotions stirred

2009-08-11T19:54:00.000-07:00

The rainbow after every storm are always amazing and heart warming.

It's hard

2009-08-10T10:04:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry for being a wimp, for saying too much and for not listening. I never knew you felt this way because of the way I do and see things. I'm fucking stupid I know. I guess I just didnt care as much about you as you did to me. I didnt even realise I'm taking about myself all the time never letting you a chance to speak. I didn't know whatever I spoke to you is crap. All the "I want you know how you feel" isnt fake. I never thought you would have such a strong dislike on me. Maybe I am crazy or maybe I am stupid. I just didnt know I can love someone this hard. Im sorry about your eye. I'm sorry for being sensitive for everything. Share with me everything i'll not get sick of it, really. I'll try to be strong.

I love you and it isnt fake.

(you might think this is crap, its okay)

Thursday

2009-08-06T02:59:00.000-07:00

The rain drops that hit me hard.

You look so happy from a far.

66th.

2009-07-24T09:39:00.000-07:00

Dont Like Quarrels.

62th on a Sunday.

2009-07-15T19:28:00.000-07:00

No sun, damn it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAINE GIRL!

2009-07-12T22:08:00.000-07:00

Raine was rather amused by the elephants performance.

Raine even remembered the elephants shitting because whenever we mention elephants in the zoo she says "uhe uhe"(shitting).

Ps: Mum says she wants to go zoo again together with dad and me in september and asked me to bring Ian along. Awakard....

46th !

2009-07-02T21:48:00.000-07:00

ouch. no, not a sore eye. yes I got hit by a badminton racket(fucking pain please). Everyone in class were laughing at my "sore eye". Now I have big small eyes. Damn it.

Gonna rush down to woodlands polyclinic later after school. Hopes everything turns out fine! :)

2009-06-18T07:20:00.000-07:00

Went ECP with classmates and Giwah last Friday. The journey was damn long but had a hell lot of laughter when we were there. Renting of bicycles were cheap so we decided to rent them and cycle all the way down to the end of ECP to find Ianmay. True or dare that night was crazy, plus there's Giwah around, double the funniess. Do you know? The stars there are simply amazing!

You asked, "what about my future? what about children?".
I say, it's my life and it's personal.
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Day 1.

2009-06-09T09:22:00.000-07:00

Watched "Marley And Me" while eating chips.

Went to sleep and dreamt of terrible stuff.

Had those smelly durians.

Walked to my tuition kid's house.

Had chips again when walking home

Played with Raine and she mumbled "Kor kor where?"

Had 2 sticks.

Why? You were always around.

Sunrise at the east.

2009-06-03T11:27:00.000-07:00

It was really beautiful, so was my love.

Ps: what are you, friend?

No pretense.

2009-05-24T10:07:00.000-07:00

It wasn't an impulsive act.

You know I can get really kiddy when I'm around you, but doesn't mean that I'm not serious. You remind me of us being crazy saying all those stupid yet funny jokes but why not now?

Why hadn't you hear my side of the story.

Just maybe, we think differently now.

And you know what, I really needed your support.

I miss you sunshine.

Right here.

2009-05-20T05:38:00.000-07:00

I'm having very very bad skin condition right now, it sucks. :(

STOP!

2009-05-10T09:59:00.000-07:00

1 dress
2 shoes
3 tops
2 bottoms
1 jacket

$176 since the start of May.
This a reminder Carol Guo, no more spending this May.
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What about the puma shoes ? =/

Say Hi to

2009-05-07T06:03:00.000-07:00

my "self proclaimed love". Now my "BFF". hahahahhaaha.

...

2009-05-06T01:23:00.000-07:00

how stupid. how fucking stupid.

Balance

2009-05-05T09:19:00.000-07:00

The sky that evening right above rp's field was really beautiful. It displayed colours like pink, purple and orange! My camera phone is too lousy to capture the moment.

Spent that evening at the stand, just staring and waiting for May.

Forward.

2009-05-03T11:08:00.000-07:00

Carol is drown by emotions and doesnt know if this time is for real.

Me Mrs Gosling very moody.

2009-04-22T09:46:00.000-07:00

Very very charming. Ryan Gosling.

Here's introducing my class/team mates. Xiang yi(the girl who loves shopping), Sasha(Sexy nurse) and Ian May Oo thin(the one who enlightened me with the knowledge of bungs). First day of school was terrible because I woke up at 5am that morning feeling sick and didn't manage to get back to sleep. Missed meeting Jerome and Amanda at the train station because I was running late and true enough I was late for class by 10mins due to the queue for lifts was JAMMED PACKED with people and I was too sick to climb up 7 storeys. SO I WAS LATE FOR CLASS, dammit. 0.5 deduced from my grades. Only just did I found out that I got an ugly C for the first day of school. Wah piang eh, I am so so mad! But still, my ppt sucked and I wrote crap in my rj, hahahahah. So everyone in class kinda did badly. Now when I'm almost recovering, I'm down with another unknown illness. I have to be very very healthy for the rest of my 3 years in school to get good grades. Not to forget that you must have a class that is funny and that you can click with, like mine!

I've missed the 4x a week jog because of FOY and now this. I hope I get better for school and my night jogs. Like now.

Adjusting

2009-04-18T10:22:00.000-07:00

See Jerome's "huh" expression.

My new found friends/team - SPARTANS WOOSH! :)

Rp's FOP is fairly okay, nice people awesome cheers. Esp love the war cry, it's damn damn cool. My team's OGLs are very sweet and nice people as well. I got myself a *best friend*(actually his everyone's bf) on the first day of camp, his freaking hilarious and we can seriously click.

School starts 830 everyday. So that means I got to wake up at 645 everyday, no diff from secondary school. If you know me well enough, I'm not a morning person. Cabbing down to school cost me 19bucks, not very wise. So the only solution is to sleep early! Immediate action taken.

I aint afraid but to say that I was freaking pissed with you. It's okay if you tell me that we wont be going home together because you want to join you group of guys(whom I also know), I'll cool with it. But you fucking left me standing outside the gents like an idiot waiting for you when you're already off with your friends while still have the cheek to call claiming that "Oh I din notice you weren't around, and I'm at the school's entrance" when there's only me and Jerome. Then when I'm at the traffic light you are at the MRT station. Knowing so, I didn't want to bother anymore. The next day you claimed that I said things I didn't, to be honest, I didn't argue because I know your character well enough. So next time, when you need someone to go down to school together because your friends aint by you, dont bother asking me along and then push me aside. Whether or not you'll be angry/dont talk to me/spam after reading this post, its entirely up to you. Cause I think you need know how people think of you, period.

Ps: I'm not piss anymore, cause I dont see the point of being.

Just fascinations.

2009-04-09T11:23:00.000-07:00

When I was 7, I wanted a flying carpet just like the one Allahdin had when he took his princess along with him.

Then at 12, I wanted to flying car like the one in "Harry Potter".

Now, I just want to flying like Peter in "Heroes".

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Had been cabbing down to work almost everyday, and ohmyfg-ing spent 60++ in 4 days. Now I know how Ming wei feels cabbing down to work for a week. Argh, money comes money throw.

A major pig out at work today. Cheese & peanut pancakes, soy bean drink,sweet and sour pork noodles, a bowl of porridge, coffee and tea both hot and cold, peach flavour yami yogurt with nuts and canned red beans with veg. spending close to 20bucks on food. Not smart.

Thank goodness I got to know Mama Ruth where life at work could be so so plain and boring. And we had an awesome lunch at HK cafe chatting about her children and life. Trust me, you will simply smile when you see her. I'm working 10 hours straight tomorrow and Mama Ruth ain't going to be there *slouch*. But not that bad lah, the tenants there are all very nice people, always throwing me food and drinks(maybe a kiss or two)! hehe. ANDDD AFTER THINKING FOR 3 DAYS I FINALLY FINALLY GOT MY LONDON SHOES TODAY! yeahhhhhh! -pretty and pain. Purchased a few cheap comfy bottoms as well. Even got one that is a size smaller to encourage myself to fit into next month.

I wanted to go jogging just now, but still bloated. *sighs*
Gonna continue jogging 4times a week. Aaron is right about clearing my thoughts. Makes me feel damn good that I'm actually doing my health a favour rather then taking in grass. Great job me!

Here presenting the Square2 tenants'(okay maybe just the 6 of us) top favourite/cheap/big portion/finger licking/mouth watering/a must have in your whole entire life, meal..

FRIED SALMON RICE.
(Never judge it's looks, it's muah!)

Going to grab it tomorrow oh yes.

Put, socks on

2009-04-03T09:39:00.000-07:00

and

size matters.

But this time I'm going to push myself till I see results.

2009-04-01T10:34:00.000-07:00

Felt damn good after jogging for 30mins today.
Mighty me only managed to fool Julien today. But it's nothing compared to the prank I played on Joel a few years back tellng him that I was pregnant. HAHAHA.

Mum ain't working tommorow so that means Raine will be coming over. Oh I can't wait to see her and cuddle her like a small baby(though she's reaching the age of 2) with her smiling and giggling. Raine has been such a blessing in my life so much that I've had never mind catching her vomit or crap with my bare hands. :D

Anyways, I overheard this conversation while I was at work........

(whole bunch of secondary school children)

schoolboy: "Oh what! He lah, dared me to make your balls move without touching it"

schoolgirl 1: "uh huh?"

school girl 2 to schoolgirl 1: "I dare you to kick his brain without touching it"

Puberty eh?

Shake and press, quick!

2009-03-29T01:23:00.000-07:00

Ta dah! Introducing my Rock Band.

The guys are bosses of St Games located at Novena square 2. Went down to St games with Julien after Sun tanning on wednesday, awesome place, awesome people.

Woke up at 5.15am this morning for this event held at UOB building. Actually the work wasn't as tough as I thought it will be, though tiring. Still it was fun mingling with the adults, teaching the children wii and snapping photos. So when I was just about warming up there came a little girl(who has special needs) with her mother. Every single time she won or had a "perfect jump" she would yell "look mommy!*giggles and laughs with head rolled back*" and her mothers beams with joy saying "well done!" Looking at them just warms my heart because they showed me right there at that moment, how great a mother's love could be. How essential it is to provide children with the right kind of enviroment from young. Accepting them no matter how they are since birth.

Thus, I'm even more inspire to open up orphanages for children with or no AIDS and for children with special needs. I'm pretty sure this ain't a phase.

(I just had this overwhelming uncontrollable feeling that I know I shouldn't have)

Pointing north

2009-03-21T11:54:00.000-07:00

I had a welcome back party for Cort today. It's like his finally home, thanks to Sap. And I got his set of string changed! I finally ditch them after 9 months of the same old sets of smelly strings.

I can't wait for school to start cause at least it would be some decent enviroment to hang around to do nothing. What is with Rp's SOH? Where's the orientation and freshmen camp they claimed to have? See why I don't like Rp now. Like why did I even agreed Rp? Oh ya, because I didn't do awesome for my O's.... duh. But frankly speaking, Rp looked really pretty and classy. So I guess I can only complain after school starts.

Next time you " loansharks" wanna make a prank call, just make sure my family members ain't at home. losers.

Towering above all

2009-03-19T09:30:00.000-07:00

I am still waiting for the right time.

Love work.

2009-03-17T08:47:00.000-07:00

I have a sudden craving for Fried salmon rice from sakae sushi. And this reminds me of work. Work has been good man, unexpectedly. I got to know really nice people there esp Mama Ruth. She is definitely one of the sweetest and funniest lady I've ever met.

And you know what Julien? I think I shouldn't talk too much about myself now. Time for you to socialise with me!

Dear blog, I'm back.

2009-03-15T09:36:00.000-07:00

Decades since I last did this. So finally to everything.